Life has been hard as of late. Like really hard. Like I-want-to-run-away-sometimes-hard. I find myself praying very differently than I ever have before. Asking for a different kind of help; a specific help. Sometimes it's just asking to please help me put aside worries so that I can do the most essential tasks like be a mom whose mind is present for her little boys. Maybe I am starting to learn to not just ask for the "whole enchilada" things or to take something enormously challenging away in my life. Maybe it's wisdom. Maybe it's exhaustion. I'm not sure sometimes but I do know that my Heavenly Father is aware of me. I do know that.
I am constantly reminded of the joy in life. This helps me to digest the bitter parts.
The following are a few things that have reminded me that my Father in Heaven knows me:
* Summer rain. The cleansing of those hot days.
* Arms and legs that work and help me swim and do tons of other things that not only do I need to do, but want to do.
* Sitting in the car with my mom and tearing up talking to her. From the back seat I hear Carter say, "Nina, it's all right. It's going to be all right." Yeah, he calls me Nina now. Like exclusively.
* Knowing that I have people around me that love me. I can feel their prayers, especially my Mom's prayers.
* A much appreciated raise at work.
* Learning as much, as if not much more than my girls from my Young Women's lessons that I study.
3 comments:
Carter can be good at making you feel better. Love you Aunt Nancy!
I'm so sorry Nina! Just know you have friends close by (and a cute three year old who will keep you smiling).
So sorry things are feeling so rough right now. Can I do anything?
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