Prayers of a 6-year-old

In the upside-down infertile world that I live in I had come to "accept" the fact that Jameson would be an only child. This fact was not one that I readily accepted - many tears, heartache, worry and feelings of guilt and inadequacy plagued me - even after my so-called acceptance. At one point, I had Nate talked into adopting a cute little baby girl from China. But if you've ever done any sort of research into what their government requires or restricts this certainly was not in our future.

A few months ago Jameson started talking about how desperately he wanted a little brother or in his words, "I would even take a little sister." This of course only compounded my aching heart. I would simply tell him if Heavenly Father wanted our family to have a baby, then it would happen. He asked on several occasions if we could talk to a large family about "dopting" one of their seemingly extraneous children. About 8 weeks ago Jameson became insistent that we pray every night for his desired sibling (something I certainly had begun years ago in my own personal prayers). We did and his discussions of his future brother or sister grew. I was torn. The likelihood of this happening was pathetically low and "dopting" was not an option for our little family. My heart broke.

Then, one day after experiencing days of unrelenting nausea...

I am in shock, nervous, excited, grateful but most of all, humbled.